Letter

Jhe,

We were about 60 or so kilometers apart. We can’t talk over the phone like normal people do for really strange reasons. Our usual mode of communication often cut short by lack of credit. I was not allowed to be with you or go out of the house without any reasonable purpose or so they say. Not that I’m saying I’m fed up with it all. On the contrary I’m willing to go the distance with this and give it everything I’ve got for this to work no matter how hard the situation we are in.

When I met you, you were somebody who was so jaded with everything to do with relationships. You felt it was all a myth. Relationships, they won’t last. From then on I made a mission. It was a mission to make you believe. For I want you to know that no matter how impossible things may seem, myths are oftentimes a reality. For it is impossible for man to comprehend how far a star actually is from him. But every time he gazes the night sky he sees a glimpse of the majestic.

But soon enough, I’ve realized that it wasn’t only you that I wanted to instill the faith. I also needed to believe myself. And it didn’t take long for this to happen for I’ve never felt this way about a relationship my whole life, considering the quantity I’ve had. And I slowly realized that though I’ve committed numerous mistakes in the past and is jaded as well from everything, I’ve conceded that the risk is worth taking. Every ounce of effort and sacrifice is deserving of what we have. It is worth sacrificing something in return for something better.

The mission though is far from being a walk in the park. Damn it’s been a very rough ride. Aside from the tough situations we are often in, I have to contend with my own personal flaws. I am a prisoner of my own emotional and ill-tempered soul. And at times I was so afraid that I almost destroyed what we’ve worked for all this time because of my immaturity and psychoses. But I swear that I am doing my best to be near as perfect a human being as possible for the job. For I will carry on with my mission whatever it takes.

Right now I am happy, for you are with me, finally. And right now that apparently you have been changing, things don’t come easily as they used to be. I dunno. But I am prepared for what is to come. Given the physical unlimitations we have, presently we have mental limitations as well. We both are about to start a whole new life together, if fate permits to do so. Coincidentally, both of us will be very busy.  I miss our time together even if it’s only our time together in each of our separate minds. But that’s how it is. And I am willing to contend with it all for I believe in this. I believe in us. Because I will always think that we are indestructible. And that momentary loneliness will never be enough to stop perennial bliss. I can’t promise that I will be successful with my mission, but I will give it everything I have.

Ghitte